I Will Listen to Steven Tyler

I know I'm the only one in the world right now who is watching American Idol, but Paul McDonald and a few other contestants have stolen my heart. There is something special about an artist who really wants to share something with the world, not just have their picture taken and their name screamed passionately by complete strangers. But anyway, as I was watching it tonight, Steven Tyler actually said something that made sense to me. He said something to the effect of, "You have to sing like you do when you are all alone and no one is watching." I once had a teacher tell me that character is who you are when know one is watching. It is when we are alone that we allow the largest portion of our soul to dance freely in the open. We allow it to stand before us without fear of judgment, without fear of disapproval. We allow it to show us who we really are and what we really have to offer.

Now, I don't sing, but I want so badly to write, to share truths, to create beauty, to build bridges, to heal. I want so badly to give to others as I honor my love for words and thoughts, and feelings and truth. I want so badly to be a positive, empowering voice in the conversations of peace and reality and change going on in our world. I want to be a voice for Love, Connection, and Peace. I want so baldy to help people find the gold that is created from the chaos.

I've been trying to write for weeks, and will type three or four pages on my laptop only to delete them all. I've been trying to write for an audience. Someone who doesn't know me. Someone who doesn't care. I've been writing as if they are sitting on the other side of my computer screen, judging every comma, every outlandish metaphor, and out of this world claim. They even criticize my love for the number three and it's obvious dedicated and abundant usage.

Steven Tyler answered my question, "How do I really write this book?" I have to write like no one is watching. I have to write like I pray, with all of my soul. I have to write as if I'm talking to the Universe absent of judgment, and full of Love and support. I pray with vulnerability, but in that vulnerability there is strength. I pray in times of overflowing Love and gratitude, but also in times of great fear, yet during all of those times, I stand on a solid surface of faith. I have faith that I will be lead to do the most good, that I will be lead towards the most fulfillment, and that with each step, I will be falling deeper and deeper in the arms of true Love and Peace.

I will write like I pray. I will write with vulnerability and faith. I will listen to Steven Tyler.